Okay.
I am disappointed now because I've gotten back all my block test results and frankly they are not satisfactory (and that was an understatement).
I'm feeling just... disappointment. Firstly I'm performing below my (already quite low) expectations; secondly I'm so so so tired I just want to collapse and sleep until tomorrow (ha! But that is not possible because I've to wake at five to get ready for marshalling!).
Anyway. I am fully aware that many people did worse than me (okay maybe not ._.) and whatever, but I don't give a damn honestly, their feelings aren't applicable in this situation. Simple fact: I did badly for term one. Get that?
I'm just so sick of getting last in class you know. Although yes, that is my fault, but I'm still sick of it. Then you'll ask, "Fiona, why not you work harder?" That is a good suggestion, but people have been suggesting that to me for about three years and so far it's not effective.
Thus we conclude the problem lies with me and my attitude. Okay, I don't have the best brain or whatever but surely I am smart enough to get As. Yes. I'm very proud of that fact that I've the potential (so happy with it that I always ignore the fact that I'm not using this potential in me!). Teachers from like Primary one have been saying I'm smart etc. etc. except I'm not as diligent as I should be, so that fact also stands. This sentence is disgustingly self-centred.
Up till now we've ascertained two facts: that I am smart and I am lazy (haha this sounds so complacent). And I am failing my secondary two term one!
Classmates and squadmates say that it's only term one and I can do better etc. but if I don't change my attitude, I can't do better! Correct or not.
Argh my mother just came in and spoke with me.
Actually you know I realised that some of the errors I made in the block tests (like Geography) affected my mark greatly. Like Geography I got _ because I misread a question, and if I hadn't I'd have gotten four marks more!? That's an A1 (a low A1, but an A1 nonetheless)! And for Mathematics I'd have gotten around five marks higher if not for my weird half-careless mistakes. Not very good also but... it's an A2 ._.
Alright now you know I really got damn horrible results.
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NPDP! Happy stuff right? So, took a taxi to school and reached at around 5.55 -.- (LOL a bit unnecessary ._.)! Changed and everything :)
Okay this is stupid. I'm cutting to the chase.
So! NPDP! Was cool at first until I screwed up (slightly)(more slightly than slightly)(really obviously) .________. but nevertheless I did look up and lock up! Nervous laughter.
Grh I tell you the 210 (oops) people were laughing at us which is freaking disrespectful? Like, I don't care wtf you think about NPCC but please can't you at least be polite enough not to laugh? And somemore so obviously.
Anyways, I like the drumming~ I saw Nicole :D I... was sweating chao unglamly but my classmates said they couldn't tell ^^ so that's great!
After the parade we'd this short photo-taking sessions xD totally stare at one camera after another with the same pose -.-
Then LA! Went up but found the class -gaspgasp!!- empty, but at least I'd the sense to check the computer labs (since Mdm Oehlers often uses them). And I found my class and they clapped :D :D :D yey. And ohmygod Kellynn and Ting Ting said I'm skinny ._. and what is even more disturbing (!) Ying Ying said I'd an hourglass figure (?!!?). Fact one: I do not. Fact two: Why... do you even notice that kind of thing... o.o?
My skirt kept drooping. Okay that isn't the right word but I don't know how to describe it... My skirt ESCAPED from the belt lots of times D: which sucks and I couldn't even tighten the belt 'cause 1. I couldn't breathe properly 2. People kept saying I should loosen the belt since it was causing me so much discomfort.
So.
Ladeeda was cool :D I actually enjoy walking around in uniform leh, I think I'm like a FAME MONSTA (Lady Gaga :D) or something. Okay not really it's just cool.
Almost every teacher asked me if I was hot in the uniform LOL. To which I replied: Yes, kind of. Heh.
I had Home Economics in my uniform too -.- looked retarded with the apron .__. we made cupcakes with cream cheese in them, and Dorcas'/mine were AWESOME 'cause the cream cheese was protruding (._.) from the top of the cupcake, LOL ._. Unique or not ;D
Hmmhmm had music too. My class is horribly talented, I tell you! Totally can cut an album please.
Okay, bye. Gotta go, peace out, erm. Looking forward to marshalling :D and stopping wayward students from ponning CSM halfway.