I THROW MY HANDS UP IN THE AIR SOMETIMES! :D!
SUPER SIAN OF GEOGRAPHY. Setting goals I can't seem to achieve = my forte. But this pattern has to end (omg BARELY POLITICAL
And recently I've been reading cheeserland.com (is quite PG)! Which is why I've started using portmanteaus like "liddis" HAHA chao cute! :D!
Okay Fiona stop itttt uhm.
I shall talk about myself, then. My favourite topic wtf. But this is because I AM AN ATTENTION SEEKER. Yeah okay other than that, I realise that I require Constant Validation. Constant validation in terms of friendships/relationships (but friendship especially?). I don't really care much if I'm doing a good job at school (I am wired liddis cannot help it) (actually I think it's 'cause of the ermmmm 5 years of not-so-good at school and I've adapted to failure. Not failure exactly, just not the best thing. Which isn't good. Yes I know. But that is another story.) but I really care about my friends/family! Like honestly my priorities in life are all RIGHT but my priorities for school are wrong. Whatever (I don't really mean this).
Anyway yeah I need validation from my friends too! Take Sabrina for example. She's very nice, and I consider her to be one of the most ermmmm understanding friends I've had. It's easier to tell things to her than let's say, Cheryl Yau. When I say things I mean like, personal feelings and stuff. AND NOT JUST ABOUT ACADEMICS (which I am open to sharing about, because everyone knows about it anyway wtf). Anyway ): when I tell Sabrina things, she listens and she empathizes with me! And so it's easy. And somemore she always tells me nice stuff about myself like: "You're very nice~" or something liddis la. = validation! Okay comparing her with Cheryl Yau (sorry), I feel that Cheryl and I can never be close friends (sorry but is truth :/ what you want me to say I cannot Lie on this blog) because she is very... frank. I'm not asking my friends to MAKE THINGS UP AND MAKE ME HAPPY THROUGH THEIR FALSEHOODS, but Cheryl is just brutally honest. This is really GOOD at some points, like when erm she tells me I need to wake up in time for EOYs, but I don't think my self-esteem could take it if we were closeclose friends and she tells me something like that every single day. 'Cause my self-esteem is reallyreallyreally low wtf. I believe this stemmed from some childhood thing, but I cannot be sure la.
Can I take criticism? Yeah I think I can, but just not too much. Sometimes, because I suck, this cannot be helped la but... idk after that I will just go away from the session feeling like a loser.
Okay next! I think I'm very ermmmm sensitive? Perceptive? to the things people feel about me. Okay I think I've mentioned this before .__. but yknow I read expressions REAL well. Unfortunately ): is not good thing. Is Really Not Good Thing.
When people talk about me I can feel it. Also quiktip: Do not look at the person you're gossiping about. Do Not. It is very suspicious, especially so when you think you're whispering but you're in fact loud enough
to wake the dead for her/him to hear every single word.
I'm not insinuating that 213ers say bad stuff about me! Definitely not. But it's through experience. And also because I'm not exactly a saint and I've talked about people before la D: It's a mean thing to do, but sometimes I'm just pissed and - okay forget it you don't want to hear my excuses. Anyway so! Where was I.
Oh yeah. I may be a bit perceptive but I'm really really SUSPICIOUS too! Like I keep feeling random people that I like actually hate me (which could be true la but I WILL NEVER KNOW. That's what killllls me D:)! And yeah that also sucks 'cause I think back to every single conversation etc. and I feel like "OMG yeah that totally proved she hates me WTF I can hit my head against a wall nao"). Random call-out: Khengfangggg T_T would understand this lolwut.
Okay since I'm probably offending a lot of people anyway, why not let me offend even moar people and analyze my friendships with some 213ers! Good idea Fiona.
(You realise I'm not talking about squadmates because squadmates are a whole different area that is too complicated, so I'm not getting in there wth)
Note: I has Confrontation Issues ):
As for the password... I'll tell you all when I'm emotionally ready wtf.
Okay that's all. Don't hate on me D: D: D:
Actually to be all meme
I should say something like "HATERS GONNA HATE" but I don't have the confidence to take the comments. You can drop me a hate comment/love comment/shocked comment @ my formspring thoughhhh :)
Okay I has Geography so I shall end here. Gbye.
Labels: dynamite, wao yet another self-analysis