i seriously hate it like this.
i hate it when i feel disappointed by myself, when i've to pretend that it's alright, when squadmates are angry, when tensions run high, when it has to end like that.
OMG AND I SAW JJM YESTERDAY?! on 961?! i'm totally unprepared for things like that omfg because 961 - no one takes it. and then i'm on my phone and looking and then suddenly i feel a strange compulsion to turn (actually i think someone bumped onto me ._.) to the side and I SEE JJM?!?!? who was leaving the bus (i was standing in front of the doors) with her friend. and that was omfgfreaky and unexpected and i said: "hi ma'am". and when she left: "bye ma'am". LOL.